“Insensibly he formed the most delightful habit in the world, the habit of reading: he did not know that thus he was providing himself with a refuge from all the distress of life; he did not know either that he was creating for himself an unreal world which would make the real world of every day a source of bitter disappointment”
— Of Human Bondage by W. Somerset Maugham (via thechocolatebrigade)
I understand, all right. The hopeless dream of being - not seeming, but being. At every waking moment, alert. The gulf between what you are with others and what you are alone. The vertigo and the constant hunger to be exposed, to be seen through, perhaps even wiped out. Every inflection and every gesture a lie, every smile a grimace. Suicide? No, too vulgar. But you can refuse to move, refuse to talk, so that you don’t have to lie. You can shut yourself in. Then you needn’t play any parts or make wrong gestures. Or so you thought. But reality is diabolical. Your hiding place isn’t watertight. Life trickles in from the outside, and you’re forced to react. No one asks if it is true or false, if you’re genuine or just a sham. Such things matter only in the theatre, and hardly there either. I understand why you don’t speak, why you don’t move, why you’ve created a part for yourself out of apathy. I understand. I admire. You should go on with this part until it is played out, until it loses interest for you. Then you can leave it, just as you’ve left your other parts one by one.”
by Ingmar Bergman (via emotionalelixir
interview with Andrei Tarkovsky
What would you like to tell young people?
I don’t know. I think I’d like to tell them only this: Learn to love solitude. Learn how to be more alone with yourself. The problem with young people is that they try to unite on the basis of some noisy or aggressive event, so they don’t feel lonely. And this is a sad thing. I think a person needs to learn how to be on his own, even starting at childhood. To be alone doesn’t mean being lonely. It means to not get bored with yourself, which is a very dangerous symptom…almost a disease.